I wonder

Should I just settle? I mean, Topher and I don't get along anymore, but I am so afraid to be alone.  It's been so long since I've truly felt loved, appreciated, and wanted, that I crave that.  I have nowhere to go when we get divorced.  I'm giving up and just think I should settle and give up on a better life.  We've been married for eleven years, have three kids, and we are comfortable around each other.  Who needs the love and affection when you have that?  I just can't get heartbroken again.  I feel miserable and lonely, but at least I have someone at home to talk to that isn't one of my kids.